Reality

I woke up this morning later than what I planned… but what’s new. I slept well though and my bed was more comfortable than usual. My shower was refreshing, I threw on some clothes and was almost late for my meeting but made it there right on time… good thing number 3 for the day. I walked to the Cistern and sat outside with the intentions to read for class, but I didn’t..and was fine with that because I was sitting in the shade which was a tee bit chilly but with a little piece of sun shinning on me I was juust fine. 

But I don’t feel happy….I’m not sad either, and I am far from content. I think I am scared. Which is something that I don’t believe I’ve ever felt before. Now I don’t mean like “boo! i gotcha!!” scared or “I’m home alone and hear a strange noise O_O”. This is more of….I don’t know what the fuck I am doing. I don’t know my purpose in life…and I don’t know if I’m on the right path to figuring that out either. Today failure and success are not far from each other.  I see them both…with one good connection I can figure out what I am going to do with the rest of my life and with one slip-up I can end up doing something that I hate for the next 15yrs…

Is this making sense?..

I was reflecting on my past 4 years and 4 years ago…my senior year of High School, I knew what college I wanted to attend, what clubs I wanted to participate in, what sorority I wanted to join. And I accomplished those things….I came and conquered CofC….owned that bitch. Now I don’t know what the next step is, what do I have to conquer now? Well I want to conquer the world but I don’t know how….and I don’t know where to start. I feel like I’m at a stand still…staring at a wall and waiting for a door to appear. What do I do until then? That’s what I want to know. I’m not one to not have a plan. But I definitely do not have one….and that scares me. 

The picture below depicts how I long to feel right now. Pure joy is all in this picture. 

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Juicing

So I’ve been juicing since Sunday afternoon. I won’t lie and talk about how great it is and everyone should do it because truthfully I want some freaking FOOD!

Now then, I’m not saying that the juice is nasty, and it doesn’t give me a boost of energy, because it does. Hell probably too much energy; I haven’t been able to go to sleep early like I want to because I have too much energy….hummm….maybe I should work out or something..but I hate working out. You may be wondering why I’m juicing, and to answer your question, I have no particular reason. I’m not doing it to lose weight, but if I do that’s cool, I’m not doing it because I want my skin to clear up, because..well, I don’t have bad skin..hummm what’s another reason why people do stuff like this *wonders*…shoot I don’t know, but I’m not doing it for any other reason you can think of.

Though I guess I want to make sure that I still have the discipline to stick with it until Friday (which is my favorite day) and I do actually care about my overall health so if I can show my body some TLC for these 5days I’m sure it’ll appreciate it. OK….so I guess there is a reason why I’m doing this whole juicing thing..whatever.

I wouldn’t be a good blogger unless I told what all I put into my juice.

Today’s menu consisted of:

Breakfast

2 green apples some strawberries (however much you want to put in there…shoot you have to drink the stuff so if you like strawberries….load it up! and this goes for all these ingredients) 1 kiwi 1 cucumber 1 or 2 celery sticks Some ginger

I think that’s all for breakfast now on to lunch

1 cucumber some Kale (load up on the kale) 3 celery sticks 1 green apple 1/2 of peeled lemon a hint of ginger

I think that’s it…

Dinner

Carrots (lots of carrots…4 or 5 should do) 3 celery sticks Kale..again load up 1 pear 1 red apple

I think that’s it..but keep in mind when juicing to do your own thing, who need a recipe when it’s all going into the same mix; as long as you have some fruit in there you’ll be good to go! But I will say to try and load up on the fruit in the morning and by dinner your juice should be mostly veggies. Now don’t ask why, I read it somewhere and it seemed to make sense, so I didn’t question it. Good luck if you do decide to venture out and do the whole juicing thing, but I’d recommend to not do it to s
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Dick and Jane

So there’s this guy named Dick who I don’t know them too well, and then there’s Jane who I talk to from time to time…and this is just a snippet of their life…

Dick is feeling Jane so he asks his friend James if he knows about the girl named Jane.

Not too well James admits, but I heard she’s a tough one…she will not give up the clit!

So Dick sees this as a challenge because what chick says no to the dick of Dick?

So Dick goes after Jane and Jane says no of course because Dicks not her type and they way he was talking just didn’t sound right. *raises eyebrow* (you should too, to get the full affect!)

Anywho..

Dick wants it even more and knows Jane does too because her mouth gets a little slippy..when she gets little tipsy after a rough week at school..

Later Jane asks me about Dick and all I could say was I heard he’s a dick so don’t give up that clit! She said I won’t because I have too much wit!

Dick woos Jane with suave convos and cutesy pillow talk, he even put a tinkle of gas in her car….thinking “gas a make her dance” (cheesy but whatever..)

Jane is blinded by this new Dick and must admit, he doesn’t seem like a dick.. :-/and before you know it Dick shows his dick and her wit is dismissed. *smh*

Now what shall Jane do,<now that she's been wooed and has done something that she said she'd never do? O_O

I don’t know what to do

Have you ever sat in class where you don’t know what is going on. Not because you are incompetent, or because you’re not trying your hardest to pay attention, but because your professor just talks a lot…about a lot….about NOTHING… Let me elaborate.

I am currently sitting in class right now writing my first blog. Why am I not paying attention you ask?…well I didn’t know when class actually started. I have no clue if I should be writing notes or if I should be listening because this is just good stuff to know for my everyday life. So to be safe..I’m recording the lecture. Maybe if she seemed more enthused about what the heck she is talking about, I would actually want to listen. To make sure that you don’t think that I’m just being a student who just don’t give AF (“a fuck” for those of you who are not too hip)…I am not the only person in here who doesn’t know what to do with myself! You’d think this was elementary school because of all the people walking out of class to “get some water” or “use the bathroom”! There’s a guy on twitter, a guy studying for another class, a girl writing the pros and cons of going away to Madrid…there’s a girl texting, a guy playing on his Ipad….*sigh* must I go on!?

And then there’s me…writing my first blog for the hell of it because my professor is boring AF(“as fuck”) and I don’t know if I should be listening or not.